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i am scared of my past.

i am scared of my past. scared of what i might find if i return there. afraid of dealing with people i have not dealt with for some time. some who i intended to cut off forever. now it looks like i will be returning sooner than i intended. and ill have to deal with my parents. my employers. my friends. so many people who are so distant from me here. its scarcely been two months and yet in that time ive changed so much. become so much i never was. discovered so much about life. about myself. will my friends be able to deal with what ive become. will i be able to deal with them. or even the society ill be reintegrated into. i sit now so distanced from middle class suburbia. sickened even. how can i put out of my mind what ive seen. what ive felt. i cant. its changed me. i am no longer middle class. my brothers are on the street and i can never deny that. i must find a new way to live within a class i despise. with people of that class who were my friends. who are my friends. i am scared we will no longer know each other. we will no longer have common ground. i am scared.


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