(a letter written to miranda)
things written long ago....
there are things in our lives. or my life. that guide us. direct us. help
us to learn. or remember what we already know. like new orleans. and meeting
crazy horse. meeting magic. the talks with the quiet parrot as we rode to
sf. things that spark. and tell us.
- sometime mid-december, 1993, louisville, ky.
now is a time like this. meeting you. talking. knowing something more is
going on beside a late night conversation. morning. a time to learn again.
and be inspired. by you.
i try to be a muse. and inspire other people. as always though. people
inspire me. yet some people will inspire me more than others. will give me
things that burn into my soul. to forever create ideas with. my friend
tabitha. so many pages of my book started as letters to her. conversations.
things she gave me. we share things. secrets not told others. she has let me
read parts of her past. her diary. teaching me to understand her. and i.
same. our relationship. so incredibly deep. intense. (though not now that we
see each other not at all, but when we do it all returns). beyond words.
i have such a deep love for her.
fire taught me things in other ways. things i still may not understand. at
fifteen she has been one of the wisest i have met. a wisdom that goes beyond
simple wisdoms of the world. hard to explain. purity. like the flame for
which i named her (intense).
rereading her last letter to me i cannot explain her without you reading it
yourself. one thing she said. part of something i still am coming to know.
'understand what you learned was what you taught me.' and perhaps this is
part of becoming a muse. to teach and learn as one. together. one.
in the book of five rings. musashi. he says that the teacher is the needle
and the student is the thread. rather each is a crochet needle. able to do
little alone. together though. taking the threads of the universe. weaving
a tapestry of knowledge and understanding.
i write in strange ways. read this again. for things in the beginning will
affect the end. and end beginning. all over. like an mtv video. stream of
consciousness. to understand the whole. you must first understand each part.
but you know this.