fading. as everything slowly dissolves. a final panic before darkness.
blackness. i am somewhere else for a very long time. then. a vibration.
electricity. pulsating everywhere. running throughout my body. reaching out.
i open my eyes. disorientation. moving about. reaching. intense energy
slowly leaving my body. people. holding onto me. how long since i left.
eight seconds. but i was gone for days.
like a traveller. travelling across worlds. each takes their turn. relaxing.
breathing deeply. lungs expanded. leaning over. then up. a deep breath.
someones hands against the neck. either side of trachea. holding blood flow.
until a fade. body limp. people catching. seconds later. awakening. returning
from a dream. lasting hours. days. more. some remember. others do not. this
is how death feels. flatline.
and just before you fade out you think. what if i dont come back. fear
setting in. but its too late. the world begins to fade. experiencing the
most intense whole body orgasm i have ever felt. and i return. back to life.
and no longer am i as afraid to die.