last night. said goodbye to paul. he has a girlfriend. hes not sure
though if he wants one. after anne. he has doubts about long
relationships. relationships in general. he wouldve married anne. and
obviously they werent right for each other. cyndis a lot like anne.
paul notices a type he seems to go after. artistic. irresponsible.
something like beth said. we all have types. and the types we like all
annoy the hell out of us.
beths type. the kind that doesnt ever want to do anything. violent.
more. more. cant remember. wants to hurt people. psychotic. opposite
of beth. who likes to go out and have fun. loves talking to people. is
violent but doesnt really want to hurt. but they go together well. an
old boyfriend could almost orgasm simply by whipping her alone.
and now as i leave here i see beth would have become my best friend
had i stayed. i feel an attachment very similar to how i felt toward
jeremy. now both are gone. and i miss them both.