learning of zen buddhism lately. discovering and learning that which i
already know. for much of this book has subtle underlying zen philosophies
which are not zen at all, but simply.
and now studying the kabbalah. strange and hard to understand this book i
read. but at the same time learning a lot. at its heart the kabbalah is
like zen. or wicca. like so many of the other. the old religions. where all
everything are one. they call it ein sof in my book. the oneness from which
the ten sefirot, is the ten sefirot, as they are all ein sof. a good point
it makes in saying that which is called God is a palace. God is not the
everything which emanated the universe, but rather that conception which
allows us some limited understanding of ein sof. and even to call it ein sof
is a lie. for it cannot be named. for a naming is a limit. some form of a
conception. of something which includes everything: all conceptions, all
names, all limits, all infinites. so judaism worships that which it calls
God, the limited conception of the entirety of everything. and from that
abstraction, ideas begin to twist. so that in these times, God is no longer
seen as being the earth the air the sky the stars you me and everything.
there is no longer the understanding of a nameless everything which in some
way created God. no conception of the everything/void which existed before
that single point called God existed. the single point which then exploded.
emanating out the universe through everything and nothing.
in zen, it is understood that once a conception has been formed, that is not
the thing. that to experience God. oneness. satori. we must become void.
this is strived for through letting go. meditation. but once letting go
becomes something to do rather than that which is done. the conception has
been formed. this is what they mean when they talk about satori allowing one
to see the world how it truly is. rather at a point where there is no longer
truth nor falseness. because there becomes no longer anything to point to
to say, "there, that's false."
science takes the creation of the universe as being godless. as starting from
that single point in which all the matter of the universe existed as one.
exploding from there in a big bang. yet they cannot tell you where that point
arrived. how. when. the kabbalah says that before was ein sof/nothingness/ku.
ein sof then emanated a point. this is the beginning. that point is God.
everything in the universe was God. and God created the universe in a moments
explosion. and so God was everything, everything was God. forever expanding.
once again. its just a bunch of fucking rambling. sure, yeah, that's how the
universe works. but now that you know, do you feel all that much better?
are you going to go jump off a cliff? or dedicate the rest of your life to
the universe? no, of course you're not. you're just going to keep on living
doing what you do. the revelation is both profound and mundane. but then
again, that could be simply because i'm wrong.