fantasies about jessica
college. and i sat next to jessica. reading vox. experiencing vox.
while she sorted out her schedule. and i sat there increasingly
aroused by the fantasies. creating my own. as jessica worked on her
schedule. and i didnt touch her. so separate. sitting next to each
other on the couch. both occupied. not paying any attention to each
other. but knowing she was there. and knowing how hot she looked when
i was looking at her. so aroused. and she didnt know. and that was
perhaps the biggest part of it all. "any woman masturbates anywhere. i
want to know about it." and that woman sitting behind you in the
theatre. masturbating to dracula. as you watch unawares. as she gets
aroused. and aroused. and comes. sitting next to jessica. like that
private moment when you masturbate in the bathroom. so private. no one
else knows about it. that secret moment of pleasure. and is this the
way it feels. such a unique moment. wanting desperately to tell her of
your arousal. but youre just friends. so you have your secret moment.
alone. and it harms no one. and you wonder if sometimes keeping the
moment secret is better than revealing it. and you decide that it is.
because youre still friends. no one knows. and youre still friends.
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