before sex. thrown against wall.
before sex. thrown against wall. hurt me. make me afraid. hit me. harder.
harder. rape me. and i understand. i understand now. finally. why she wanted
that. needed that. and why he enjoyed it. the intensity. the fear.
adrenaline. rushing. pouring. the ultimate thrill. as i imagine being chased through a
graveyard. a friend following. but tonight. not my friend. ive told him to
beat me up. so i can fear. so i can run. so i can feel the pain when he
catches me. the searing. trying to escape. running again. falling. hurting.
and knowing in the end i will die. in my own little way. i understand
now. i understand.
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