fasting
tried fasting. first time it didnt work. couldnt control myself. chocolate in my drawer at work. couldnt
concentrate. second time barely made it through the day. everything was food. people going out to
eat. people eating. talking about food. its amazing how quickly you realise how much of the
advertisements on the television are about food once you decide to stop eating. oral fixation. i eat
because i want something to do with my mouth. and so true. when you decide to consciously make
an effort not to. its not the hunger that gets you. its the desire for some taste in your mouth. some
sweetness, richness. something to suck and bite. for just one day water will cure the hunger. but the
rest. this is why i must fast more. to control our desires. (and of course the cleansing of the body,
primary reason).
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