random thoughts
last night on bourbon joel said: if people need this much of a drug in their
system to make them relax and be free like this then they have some deep
severe problems alcohol is not going to solve--as silk and i. now a few
others have joined in. now that theyre drunk. dancing. wildly to the music.
as three naked women dance around. through the crowd. trying to rouse the
spiritless twenty-somethings from their middle class slumber--sometimes
thinking i might become like that. having lost the will to fight. the spirit
to dance. to live--saying something about the young. how they have such
energy. and he does like hanging out around the young. as i do as well. so
many of my friends. youthful. full of energy. forcing me to live--bands tend
not to play as well if the crowd isnt into it. silk comments--people standing
around sipping their little cocktails as the band plays on--looking at all
the normal people. now drunk. in new orleans. on bourbon. finally able to
give up their inhibitions. relax. as mothers. daughters. librarians. lawyers.
engineers. accountants. show their tits. their dicks. cunts. tattoos. all for
beads. the dare. why not its mardi gras. dancing with people in the streets.
giving change to bums theyd not give the time of day to sober. frolicking.
revelry. it is sad that people are so wound up they need all this to
relax--i never want to lose the will to live. to dance. and be free.
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